Return of the Mac(jammer)

I've been away from YML for what must seem like a year now, not too sure if it is that long.

Yes my thoughts go to Ms Duh and her tragic loss and when I was active on the forums I can remember her posts so much that they always brought a smile to everyone. Deep down I hope that YML will still have Ms Duh and like many others have already stated, we're here to offer what we can to Ms Duh, myself included.

Things have changed, Shawn now has a goatee! Migh and it is hard to believe that over a year ago I met with Shawn & Lisa at Mac Expo, London. This years Expo, which I had hoped to have met Shawn & Lisa again, only to find that this years event was without Shawn, Lisa and Griffin Tech along with Apple, Inc. The dates coincided with the launch of Leopard and I foolishly went to the Expo when instead I should've been queuing up at the Apple Store on London's Regent Street, so I missed out on a valuable t-shirt once I did get inline and inside the store.

As much as I dislike round-robin's I feel compelled to say here in my re-introduction to YML that my life hasn't been particularly good. Just in the past two days my relationship with the woman of my dreams came to a terrible and shocking turn. The same lady that I mentioned way back to you Shawn & Lisa at the Expo, my near to completion of a degree along with becoming a father this May (08) to twins around the sametime.

Now that I too am facing an uncertain future, whether I'll ever get to know my children and they know me as their father dominates my mind and brings me to tears.

All this problem emanates from the fact that I have been out of paid employment for far too long, my lady in NY is facing eviction from her home and due to my lack of employment there is little I can do but watch, spectator like, as our future hopes and happiness goes with it. Being a filmmaker carries huge consequences, one being that actual paid employment is scarce and competition for what little job openings there are makes things all the more frustrating. In this business it seems the only way to achieve success is to make your own movies.

As uncertain things are, I have a movie screenplay which has been accepted to the New York International Independent Film & Video Festival, which begins at the end of February in New York and my hope was to have gained financial backing from a distributor whilst I'm there. All this has been overshadowed by losing the very thing that has over the last 6 years kept me going from strength to strength. I am much better now than I have ever been.

My only redeeming hope is that I plan to launch my own company, along with several other interested people and hope beyond all hope that I'll make the money to then be able to return to the arms of my lady love. She has stated that she can't be with anyone else, and neither can I, but the crux right now is that I cannot afford to provide for her and my future twins.

YML in the past has always made me laugh and I hope will do so again, however I will have to listen to the free stream of the show as it'd be wrong of me to spend what little money I do have when it is needed so badly elsewhere.

I look forward to sorting things out, the mess and to catching up with old YML friends.

~Macjammer